Can never get enough of home

Last night I couldn't fall asleep again,, hmmm...:C I don't know what's wrong... I tried reading the MSN textbook (remember I said it was my dormicum) BUT it didn't work this time: Yea shocking! So I ended up lying on my bed with my eyes wide open staring at the ceiling... My body and mind was tired but my eyes just refuse to shut. HUH.

And I started thinking bout stuff...

my family

my working life

my secondary school friends

my weight XD

my 21 years record of no bf...

hmm... 21 years I wonder how I did it? :D haha. But that's not important. So as I was saying, I thought bout my parents, and I felt kinda homesick cause I haven't seen them for 7 months+ (this is the longest ever). Though I do get to talk to them once a week but it's just not the same- hearing their voice through the phone and being able to see and talk to them face to face. I sound like a very filial child right? But sadly I'm not. Sometimes, I forget to call them (cause I was so busy with work - but I really am but I know that's not a good excuse) and I think there was this once I didn't contact them for almost a month. I was so busy 'growing up' that I forgot that my papa and mama are growing old day by day. When I realized my faults...I chided myself and promised to make an attempt to call them at least once a week but when work kicks in I would unconsciously return to the same old cycle. I really despised myself for being like this. For being so bad at prioritizing. Of course my family should always come first! So I'm working hard now to let them know how important they are to me (I've wasted enough time already on stuff that I thought was supposedly important).

Now, I really wish that I can go home more often not just once every 6 months (this was back when I was still studying, now it's even worse). I've calculated... if I can only go back twice a year to see my parents and the maximum days for each of those two chances are 10 days, that means I only get to be with them for 20 days out of 365 days!

20:365

and the rest of my 345 days I'll be here, away from my family, working...so dear bosses,,,if I were to request for a 2 weeks leave I hope that you'll understand that I'm only asking for an extra few days to be added to my 20 days...that's all...:')