Hi :), I'm back after so long, I know my blog's name is ilovetowritestuff.com and I haven't lived up to that name, hehe sorry, I was really busy, busy with one of the biggest transition in my life. I quit my job you see.
Maybe,, quitting is not a good word, I resigned, that's better. So I resigned my five years job and believe me it wasn't easy, okay maybe half-half, it was easy cause I was really happy to be able to go back to my hometown after so long, but at the same time, it was really difficult because of the friends that I would be leaving behind and also the routine that I have become so familiar with. I struggled inwardly, outside I showed I have no feelings or problem whatsoever. But the letter was submitted and what done is done. So I packed my bags and shipped so many boxes, emptied out our unit and got ready to move out.
Fast forward today, I've been at home for almost 6 months now. I think I'm really blessed to have parents who are so understanding and patient when dealing with me. They did not rushed me to get a job instead asked me to stay home and rest. I did not have to pay rents or wake up super early to get ready for work. My meal was ready, my life was so easy. But I knew I needed to get back on my two feet I can't be depending on my parents forever.
I took a really long break, rested enough and now it's time to start working again. The tortuous job seeking journey I'll share another day.

Throughout my life I've always been told,
To be true, to be strong, and to be bold,
But soon I learned as my journey unfold,
That life is no fairy tale, full of roses as foretold,

I used to get bullied you see, just like a fool,
Not only at home but also at school,
I tried to be strong, I tried to be cool,
But at night I cried a lot , it could've filled the pool,

What do I truly want, I'm also unclear,
I can't sit still, I can't think straight, it lead to my despair,
They keep piling up, the things that I fear,
That sometimes I wish I was long gone, no longer here.